So I have been getting some scrapbooking done on the kids books. I have only taken like a million pictures in the last 6 months.. so there are definately enough pictures to scrapbook. I have been bouncing between all three of the scrapbooks doing the pages that come easily and skipping the ones i am not just ready to do yet. I am also working on 3 small albums for each child on their birth family. I have together all the pictures the family has given me and all the information that we have accumulated to tell a fraction of the story of their past. But at least they will have some information when they have questions, or if there is an assignment at school and they chose to talk about their birth family .... we have some history.
But tonight I was working on X's album and the 2nd page i have saved in each album to write a letter to each one on our first initial meeting and what we thought of each other and our hope and dreams for them. (something i was definitely putting off because of the difficult factor in capturing this moment for each of them -- & trying to have each letter not be a stock letter with just their name inserted!) I have had the paper and embellishments layed out for weeks.... but none of the letters have been written (minor detail) UNTIL tonight. I wrote my letter to my son. It all was sparked last night as Nate was getting out his bible to read ..which unfortunately we had to dust off.. and a card fell out. The card was from his graduation and was from his parents. Now, I know i keep alot of sentimental things and probley keep way to many cards and imperfect pictures and "Stuff" that you are never going to look at again.... BUT once in a great moon you open an old letter or look at an old picture and are reminded of a special moment and the pride in your parents or the love that was shared between two people or a bad hair-do phase. Those moments are priceless.
I was going through old boxes last year (condensing and organizing, of course!!) and came across the letters both my parents wrote to me on my confirmation day. They still make me cry. Or a box of old notes that i have kept from Nate... i love the one right before he proposed that he was throwing me off the track of marriage. (clever boy!!) So thinking of that and coming across a letter written awhile ago, I decided to write my first letter to my children to be read later in life. It was really hard to put down in to words what you feel, but i hope someday when he reads this he will know that instant connection i felt with him and how I felt in a second that God knew all along that this is what was meant to be. So for all you who are reading this and have children.... write them a letter telling them what they mean to you at this moment or if you are brave enough call them and tell them how proud you are of them. It means the world!!
Here is the letter to my son (the first hopefully of many) so he will never forget that he is loved.
My Son…
You are an amazing little boy! The first time I looked into your face I fell in love with your handsome smile and that laugh that is simply contagious. I remember the first day you came into our lives like it was yesterday. You were momma’s little guy. You were very upset and just sat in my lap and for the first time I comforted you and you comforted me. Daddy and I had tried so long to have a family and little did we know God had a plan. We were meant to be together. You came into our home so quickly that neither one of us had time to get to know one another, but when you crawled in my arms on that swing and we could feel each other’s heartbeats… I knew you were my son.
That first night in your “new” home you didn’t know quite what to think. We had a room all ready for you (the boy’s room) but you didn’t want to leave your sisters. You were and have always been their protector. My love for you is more profound, than I would have ever imagined. Therefore it is my solemn vow that I will love you, guide you and protect you for the rest of your life. I plan never to miss a day that I don’t say I Love You.
Your father and I are so lucky to have you in our lives and hope that you become the man you are meant to be. We are amazed to see you grow up, to see you laugh at jokes, to sing a song, and to grow taller and taller each day. You bring so much joy into our lives for everything you do. And we can’t wait to see you do so much more… like your first day of school, your first field trip, your first baseball game, your first date, and your first kiss. We can’t wait to help you with your homework and to applaud you at your first school play. To see you grow up right before our eyes and to guide and teach you all that we know. We will try to nurture you the best we can and show you how to have a relationship with God. My heart fills with pride just knowing that someday you will grow into a fine young man. And to know you are my son.
I love you.
Mommy
Time is made up of captured moments. The things shared and the moments spent together become gifts that the heart never forgets. author unknown
The kids really had a blast... they even played the hokey pokey and Rosetta participated in the limbo!!
This weekend also was X's 3rd basketball game. They played a really good team who were really tall and knew how to play. (apparently this team has practices during the week!! ) Our 3/4 year old team only had 1 practice (WHO knew it got this serious at age 4!!!)
Me and the girls also had a fun time cooking this week. Daddy has been working a little later hours, so we had to find something that mommy and the kids like doing (not play-doh ... too messy .... or hungry hungry hippos... too loud!!) So cooking sounded like a happy medium.
